The Struggle

Well the fight starts again tomorrow. It will be a quiet, stalkerish fight at first. I don't want to scare the fat. From here forward though; my body is my temple and will be treated as such. I will treat my self with respect and healthful choices. I will drink the water, practice the yoga, I will run......jog.......walk; I will walk on lunch breaks, and eat the veggies...(sometimes).

The truth of the matter is, it is hard to make the time and create the energy needed to exercise. And its not really the exercise that is exhausting, it is the aftermath of the exercise. The extra food cravings, and all there is are sweets. The sore muscles, and you still have house cleaning and laundry to do. The extra sleep needed,  but the kids get sick, or you work late or...anything else that keeps you from sleeping. The increased thirst, and there is to drink within reach is soda, or sugary drinks, or something warm and un-thirst quenching.

Everyone talks about how how it is a lifestyle change not just a diet change. It is not just overcoming laziness; it is over coming social anxiety, fears of the unknown, being murdered while jogging. It is also about re-training the family. I don't want to exchange family time for exercise time, and if no one wants to get out of the house and do something that is free. I am suddenly faced with choosing healthy outside time alone, or family time filled with indoor sedentary laughter.

The moment exercise or healthy food costs more money than the other option of less money; suddenly I'm faced with choosing between, healthier food for 1 week followed by no food for a week, or less healthy food for 2 weeks. Or money spent on physical activity that the family wants to participate in or back to the house and spend family time filled with sedentary laughter.

This is not just a struggle it is my #frinkinfatfight

No will, No way

Well my #whole30 has come and gone. I'm sure I have gained back all 10 lbs I lost while eating clean and healthy. I felt great, though I spent so much more money on groceries than I normally do. Food is already not cheap. especially if you are trying to eat semi healthy. So I will continue my journey of weight loss or not and healthy eating and my dreams of exercising. I am content at the moment to simply be at home in our small home with no place to exercise, and sleep in right past my gym alarm on my phone, and get that extra hour of sleep that I love. I m surer there will be something soon that motivates me either because I start to feel bad about my self, or I will want to look better than my current self. Yup, this is definitely my #frinkinfatfight

Almost Day 30

I am happy to announce I am on Day 25. I have been quiet day n the weight loss front, because my mind has been too busy on life/ work front. I cheated. There I said it. Not crazy donuts with cake on the side covers in chocolate syrup cheating. I had some sour cream and shredded cheese and a taco shell. And yes, I know, I need to go a WHOLE 30 for it to count. So I guess I'm on day 5 of the reset. I will officially weigh in at day 30 of the original set. I still don't fit in my old clothes yet, so I know I'm not "there" but they are looser. Tomorrow starts another beautiful vibrant day, on the road to health, and maintaining happiness, and increasing wealth. This is not as much of a struggle, but this is still my #frinkinfatfight

Victory: Mental Clarity

Today marks day #15 of my #whole30 journey. It has not felt as remarkable as I had hoped. I guess I wanted to be a size 10 by the end of the #30 days, but I don't think that going to happen. I also had hoped that my breakouts would decrease, but they are unchanged. I fear I am allergic to eggs. It is the only food that I have increased my intake of, even a few months before the start of my #whole30.
I do feel more aware of what I am feeding me and feeding my children. Which has poured over to what I'm feeding their minds as well. I have decided to cut eggs out of my diet for the remainder of my #whole30. I have also been faced with "caring for myself" in the sense that I need to choose good, not convenient, food for my body. I have become acutely aware of how often my personal health and well-being gets set aside for convenience. This holds true for my kids too. I will continue to mold my families eating options towards all good and less convenient. My non weight #whole30 2week victory is mental clarity. This is my #frinkinfatfight

#whole30 Weekends

Well its Friday, I'm on day #12 of my #whole30 lifestyle change. This week has been good, I have stayed the course, even when the hubby was drinking MY pumpkin spice creamer that I was saving until after my #whole30 was complete. I need to cook ALOT this weekend though. My meats are bland without BBQ sauce, and I won't have grocery money until next weekend. Let's get this #frinkinfatfight

#whole30 day 10

Well here we are at day 10 of my #whole30. I am holding strong and not cheating! I'm very proud of myself! The rest of the family is struggling though. Especially the kiddos. They are wanting more junk food, sugar and snacks. The hubby wishes he could feel full, but without those stinkin flour, processed food, carbohydrate foods, he is left feeling hungry after he has eaten everything in the fridge. I sent my son to school today with celery sticks and Almond butter. I actually laughed out loud while I was making it; as I  imagined him opening his lunch box and looking in horror at the food. I do have more energy....not alot, I'm not running marathons or anything, but I actually made dinner, AND picked up the living room before I crashed and burned. I need more muscle. I hope I can start to improve that soon. I also have not weighed myself yet. I'm a little scared to. I'm going to hold out until the end of the 30 days. Cheers to the struggle. It's still my #frinkinfatfight

Day #5 Energy than bust

Day 5 of this #whole30 healthy life change thing. I did good today. I had more energy today than I have had most days. My kids on the other hand fell far, far off the #whole30 wagon by indulging in pancakes with syrup. I felt thinner in my PJs, but when I got dressed in real clothes today I realized I was still fat...lol. I can't wait till my clothes fit again. I flat refuse to purchase bigger clothes, so PJs and exercise clothes it is for a few more months.