Still cleaning

I've been working on cleaning out my kitchen in preparation of starting the #whole30. I read through some of their super informative blogs, and it talks about different ways to ease the family into eating healthy and following the #whole30 too. The one I picked was the gradual. I just simply won't replace the bad stuff when it runs out. I will need to cook more. Which brings me to my other thoughts that have been perusing my mind the last few days. I've been trying to analyze why I'm making the choices in food and drink that I do...and could I easily have chosen something else or nothing at all. Here is what I found: Starbucks. I did fine without it, but I felt less like a part of visible society. I had no social interaction without Starbucks today. And what I did get yesterday, made me feel.......normal. Pizza: absolute convenience. 89° in our apartment at dinner time. So hot to cook food, not very many cooking options as of yet. Mental note....I will need to keep the fridge full enough with cookable stuff. Chipotle: my lame attempt to eat healthy and instead I ate myself sick. Awesome. Pizza: (yes again) I WASNT EVEN HUNGRY!!  But don't want food to go to waste.... So I ate it. Whole foods lunch bar: I simply needed the human interaction with the coworker I went with. Though once I was there I did not have the self control necessary to embark on an endeavor as big as "The Lunch Buffet". Ice cream: shareable moments with the kiddos. (I just can't tell them no). And it's only Tuesday. Yikes. My moods and feelings play a big part in food decisions. Let's hope meal planning and food prep will help in this area. I should probably tackle the whole " I feel invisible " feeling too. And the lack of human interaction. I wouldn't do well in prison. I also am concerned about my food budget with these healthy changes. No offense to anyone but healthy food is expensive! This is not just a struggle, its my #frinkinfatfight